bunnies in the dark

when you work back-to-back
12 hour graveyard shifts
alone
in a quiet place
where you rarely
see anyone
for more than
a few minutes
at a time

your mind goes squinty

you
become
one with
sound

now, I feel the sounds
of the traffic going by

I taste the sound
of the planes coming and going
from the airport

when these die down,
I smell the sound of the leaves
falling from the October branches

I hear coyotes
yipping in the underbrush

but I don’t ever hear the bunnies

the bunnies are too quiet
(so they can avoid the coyotes)

but I see them

after a while, they come to
trust me
as much as a wild bunny
ever trusts anything
that isn’t another bunny

as I make my patrols,
and I stumble onto one,
really close by, they no longer
immediately
dart away

now, they just sit there⠀
and munch on their grass, ⠀
as long as I don’t get
too close

it’s more than just that
freezing in place
defense mechanism

they do that when anyone
comes near, but it lasts only
until you get within
a dozen or so feet of them,
and then they’re off like lightning

but when they allow you
to come
much closer,
it’s special

or so I tell myself, to pass the time

I tell myself that it’s high praise,
and I appreciate it

I appreciate it far more
than most of the compliments
I’ve ever received from people

for those little rabbits
to just sit there,
only three or four
feet away from me,
they have to know
that I’m not going
to suddenly lunge at them,
try to eat them

when a person
compliments me,
I ask myself
the same question,

“are they gonna try to eat me?”

the answer is
usually yes

but the bunnies,
they know me now

I see them,
and as mean and cantankerous
as I can sometimes be,
as misanthropic and as nihilistic
as I frequently feel,
when I see a bunny, I still
instantly, instinctively, turn into
a four-year-old child

I begin talking like
a fucking idiot,
“hewo, widdle bunny wabbit.
“you doin’ bunny stuff?”

a human,
I’m instantly asking myself,
“am I gonna have to
“punch this motherfucker
“in the mouth?
“or is he just lost?”

but the bunnies
can do no wrong by me

any person I see,
I remain professional
and friendly (enough)

but inside,
I’m going cold and still,
weighing what I think this particular
coyote’s motives are

I sometimes deal with
meth heads, homeless people,
severely mentally unstable people,
people who are just lost

I helped a guy get home
had to call the police
to come get him
because he could only tell me
his first and last name,
didn’t even know his address

he referred to himself as
“mentally incompetent”
and apparently, he had
wandered away from home
when they weren’t looking
(if they bothered to look)
he hopped on the bus
and got all the way out here
wearing just shorts, a t-shirt,
socks, and sneakers

I don’t know what his
mental health diagnosis was,
probably severely autistic,
like Raymond Babbitt in
the movie Rain Man
I just know that he is someone
who requires 24/7 looking after
he never should have been
out here with me
and the coyotes
in the cold

I still see his face ⠀
clearly in my mind, ⠀
I hear his voice ⠀
in the October leaves ⠀
⠀
I still see the face of that cop
who I turned custody of him over to,
a big Samoan cop,
looked like it was his first
(or last)
call of his shift, because
he was beat,
dead tired

it was something that I
got to feel halfway
good about

much better than
just telling meth heads
they can’t hang out here

better than telling homeless people,
“hey, you can finish
“collecting cans and bottles from
“the dumpster.
“I won’t call the police on you.
“But you gotta pick up that
“trash you threw on the ground.”

so far, they’ve all considered that
a pretty good deal
and they picked up after themselves

that’s a brutal existence

everyone is a predator
when you’re dumpster diving for
plastic bottles and aluminum cans

anyway,
in the dark,
the crisp leaves
falling off the October trees,
they sound loud,
like intruders
climbing over the fence

like hordes of barbarian invaders

and yet,
you never hear
the bunnies

you only see them

I imagine the older ones
telling the younger ones,

“he’s okay. he won’t eat you.
“he’s just the watchman.
“he just sits in the dark over there
“and reads, writes his poetry,
“and plays that stick thing
“they call a guitar.
“he’s harmless.”

“besides,⠀
“he’s too sad and angry
⠀
“to chase us.
⠀
“he just chases words
⠀
“and sounds.”

“but just the same,
“don’t get too close.
“he’s still a human,
“and those things are
“way more dangerous
“than coyotes.”


©️2026 Kevin Trent Boswell

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Author: Kevin Trent Boswell

Kevin Trent Boswell is a thing that once blinked briefly in and out of existence. It made noises and gestures while it lasted. The exact nature of its demise is unclear. Some sources say it collapsed beneath the weight of entropy and time. Other tertiary evidence suggests the possibility that it was destroyed by a predator, an accident, or perhaps even by itself. The truth of the matter is unknown. Luckily, no one cares.

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